*Liburnica

Diggin up some diamonds while I´m browsing:



Well, I'm waiting for a disaster....

I've got my own apartment now, living with my boyfriend and my three cats. I can't even describe how relived I am for getting away from my mother, she is a monster. It is he best feeling in the world to be away from her and do what I want, whenever I want.

Also, the school I tried for accepted me, I didn't think they would accept me because last time I was in school I wasn't really good at attending, but I said them that I'm really depressed and in that time I felt awful and had trouble at getting myself together, so that is why I quit school and went in a program to try to make me feel better, It didn't really work but now I know how to handle the depression better, I will always be depressed and damaged but I have to try again and see if I can prove myself or if I am beyond repair and should just stop trying.

Another thing happened, I got a job!! At Akureyri Art Museum. Akureyri is the town I live in and this is the main Art Museum here. I'm in the reception and most of the time it is really not much to do but just charge people for going in. So I can use my time to read and browse DA, can go to the internet as much as I like and that is a big plus because I can't afford the internet at home.

So, this is all going too well for me, I wait in the shadows, afraid to turn on the lights because they might turn my luck, just one switch and all could go to hell....


UPDATE: I knew something bad would come crushing me down, I have been pushing everybody away and not been a very good friend. I´m loosing all the wonderful people that have with their kind soul taken me in as a friend and tried to help me in my depression and I push them away and haven´t been there for them when they needed me... I´m a hipochrite and selfish... I guess my mom was right when she called me selfish... I´m also loosing my boyfriend because of how mindsick I am, he cant take much more, I told him this when we started dating that this day would come when he would brake down because of me and my sickness...

Clubs:

Well I'm stuck in my never ending quest to save my soul.
It seems not to be working, I've tried exorcism, bending spoons, cleansing my aura and drinking lot of coca cola. Nothings working.

Have I mentioned how much I hate beeing tagged, This I did only for you Solla

1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal.

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses ===correctional ones
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[x] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly. @&*#^@)#^
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. XD
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.

[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly

I tag anybody who wants to do this

Clubs:

Well I'm stuck in my never ending quest to save my soul.
It seems not to be working, I've tried exorcism, bending spoons, cleansing my aura and drinking lot of coca cola. Nothings working.

I'm afraid my friends have given up on me, I don't call them because I'm just trying to stay my head together and they don't call me because I'm not the liveliest person in the world.

The thing's got me living is that that at the end of the day I can go to sleep with my cats.... Indesplickably sad...


Buth here comes my long waited cat feature:










#Edit# I made this into a news feature and I would really appreciate it if you would go and take a look [link]

Clubs:

My life has been nothing but a struggle with my depression and I'm so sick of it, I will never have a good life because of this sickness.
Wouldn't it be just fine if I would just disappear?

I think I've hurt many people because of my depression, they have done so much for me and helped me in so many ways but I can't give anything back, I can't be there for them because I can't even be here for myself, then what am I doing alive? Should I be alive? I can't help anybody, I can't function.


Features:






Clubs:

Well, I've got a subscription now
Now I'm just trying to figure out all this new stuff... its awesome!!

I will be submitting some of my drawings which are most just pencil work, but I enjoy it. They are also very abstract because I can't draw a proper drawing.... But you will see sooon..

So, my first feature will drawings after my best friend



And photos from her:
ehem.... thats me....
me there too... at the right side....
soooo cute.... not me


Cheers for my first feature!!!

Clubs: