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I have something called fibromyalgia. It describes as extreme pain, all over your body, depression and sleep disorders.... Well, this explains alot, finally I know why I always feel pain and why I can't sleep at night or sleep all day... I have to say that I'm very relieved to know, now I'm not just some whiny looser, there is something wrong with me and it is serious!!!!

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Some Changes are in order for me, I have to do that to try to change my current state of mind... Which is not good. My depression is getting so badly to me that I´m crumbling down.

So in order to change something I kicked my boyfriend out, so I could focus on myself, I know this is cruel but I have to do something for my mental health... I can´t feel like this any more, it is too hard, I´m dropping out of school because I´ve been so sick lately with depression, I literally can´t get out of bed when I´m at my worst, and that tends to happen every month for at least a week, it seems to follow my period.

Well, I´m just trying to live, doesn´t that count for something??

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Icelanders are most known for slutty girls and lot of drinking, slutty girls part is controversial, though a girl is beautiful and likes to show it, it doesn't mean she is a slut, but on the other hand icelanders are morally liberal when it comes to human behaviour.

But the second part, about the drinking is undeniably true, we are drunkards. And that shows itself best with this one weekend a year, from friday till monday probably 97 percent of the country are drinking they're asses off!!! This is the time where every family has to decide what to do that weekend; throw a party, go to partys, go camping and drink, go rampaging through your town so drunk you wake up in a wrong house, go to some outdoor festival (which are many to choose from because we hold festivals just for this weekend) or be home, be a responsible parent and teach your kid to drink properly because otherwise the kid would never funktion in a normal icelandic society.

Liqueur shops need to special order for this weekend and there is packed out of the door of people there and that is the place you go to meet with your friends and fellows, you go to the liqueur store You can stumble into your friends, parents, grandparents, friends of your parents, relatives, etc.....


So this stupid weekend was just passing by, me and my boyfriend went to the liqueur store a little bit late and we just chatched the last bottles, so with that said and thee packed bags we walked out of the store. We where gonna be sooooo hammered all weekend but in the last hour I was bribed into work on sat and sun. Well ok, I could drink on sunday evening, so on friday evening I went to sleep at 12 and my boyfriend went without me drinking.
So on sat evening I decided to drink a little.... Well I had a maybe a little too much, I remember everything though but it was the work the day after that was painfull. I take alot of medications for various causes and they went all in the toilet the night before so I get this uncontrollable shaking. So that workday went by shakily... So the big night, the big finally is on sun night, when everybody gathers on a hill and sing together and it ends with a gigantic firework show, I was so gonna go and sing my ass off but, no I was so sick I went to sleep at 11 and again my boyfriend wend by himself. And on monday nobody needs to work.

I'm a little dissapointed how the weekend turned out for me

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Read this amazing story and I promise you; your life will never be the same

Well, I'm waiting for a disaster....

I've got my own apartment now, living with my boyfriend and my three cats. I can't even describe how relived I am for getting away from my mother, she is a monster. It is he best feeling in the world to be away from her and do what I want, whenever I want.

Also, the school I tried for accepted me, I didn't think they would accept me because last time I was in school I wasn't really good at attending, but I said them that I'm really depressed and in that time I felt awful and had trouble at getting myself together, so that is why I quit school and went in a program to try to make me feel better, It didn't really work but now I know how to handle the depression better, I will always be depressed and damaged but I have to try again and see if I can prove myself or if I am beyond repair and should just stop trying.

Another thing happened, I got a job!! At Akureyri Art Museum. Akureyri is the town I live in and this is the main Art Museum here. I'm in the reception and most of the time it is really not much to do but just charge people for going in. So I can use my time to read and browse DA, can go to the internet as much as I like and that is a big plus because I can't afford the internet at home.

So, this is all going too well for me, I wait in the shadows, afraid to turn on the lights because they might turn my luck, just one switch and all could go to hell....


UPDATE: I knew something bad would come crushing me down, I have been pushing everybody away and not been a very good friend. I´m loosing all the wonderful people that have with their kind soul taken me in as a friend and tried to help me in my depression and I push them away and haven´t been there for them when they needed me... I´m a hipochrite and selfish... I guess my mom was right when she called me selfish... I´m also loosing my boyfriend because of how mindsick I am, he cant take much more, I told him this when we started dating that this day would come when he would brake down because of me and my sickness...

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Well I'm stuck in my never ending quest to save my soul.
It seems not to be working, I've tried exorcism, bending spoons, cleansing my aura and drinking lot of coca cola. Nothings working.

Have I mentioned how much I hate beeing tagged, This I did only for you Solla

1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all tagges on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal.

Info
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses ===correctional ones
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[x] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly. @&*#^@)#^
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. XD
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.

[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly

I tag anybody who wants to do this

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